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Confessions
of a Late-Life Driver
By
Marsi Buckmelter
When
I was a month shy of my thirtieth birthday, my husband decided that
not having a driver's license was a lousy thing for me to have in
common with our three-month-old son.
The
same brown eyes - yes. A fair complexion and practically opposable
big toes - you bet. An "outie" bellybutton - hey, why not?
But no driver's license? He had a point: At the rate I was going,
our son had a good chance of getting his driver's license before I
did.
The
thought of driving a car had always made my stomach lurch. When people
found out that I was a non-driver and asked why, I glibly joked that
I was a lethal weapon behind the wheel, tacitly suggesting that I
could drive but simply chose not to. The truth is, I was absolutely
phobic about driving.
When
I was eleven, one of my uncles offered to let me drive an electric
golf cart. All in all, it would have been a good experience, had I
not mistaken the power pedal for the brake and nearly smashed into
a brick wall. Badly shaken and certain that I posed a huge threat
to society, I didn't attempt driving again until I was a 29-year-old
wife, mother, and graduate student.
"Look
at them, Steve. They're babies," I whispered to my husband as
we waited to confirm my driving clinic reservations. I looked at my
fellow student drivers, lanky teens full of enthusiasm for the weekend
ahead. One boy, literally half my age, had a mohawk and lazed against
the front door of his monster truck. A sticker on the back window
warned, "Fear This." I thought, "I do. Oh God, I
do."
I
marveled at the confidence and excitement that these kids had for
learning to drive. For them, it meant dates, after-school jobs, and
road trips. Freedom. Emancipation. Adulthood. For me, it meant overcoming
more than fifteen years of fearing that I'd get the pedals mixed up
and kill myself.
After
dividing into two groups, we began our day by warming up on a circular
course strewn with orange pylons. Around and around the course we
drove at 10 mph, avoiding cones and shielding our eyes from the rising
sun. My group's collective talent for maneuvering between cones at
extremely low speeds quickly became evident to our instructors, who
presented us with increasingly challenging courses.
Our
group spent the rest of the afternoon tooling around on the skid pad
to master inclement-weather driving skills.
"Look
at where you want to go," our instructors reminded us,
"and steer in that direction."
(CONTINUE...)
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